Amel Larrieux For Real (Remix)
It’s been so long since I’ve ever gone onto this site. Looking through the majority of all my old posts I’ve written years back, I’m able to say that I’ve grown up. I’ve learned from my own mistakes, grew from them, moved on, and overall became a better person. Well it’s currently midnight within the east coast, hence my real feelings start to come out, but I’m happy. I really am. It took so long to grow and evolve into the young, mature adult I am today. I’m still constantly growing, only to see what the future lies for me.
"One day, he’s going to know. He’ll know your birthday, your middle name, where you were born, your star sign, and your parents names. He’ll know how old you were when you learnt to ride a bike, how your grandparents passed away, how many pets you had, and how much you hated going to school. He’ll know your eye colour, your scars, your freckles, your laugh lines and your birth marks. He’ll know your favourite book, movie, candy, food, pair of shoes, colour, and song. He’s going to know why you’re awake at 5am most nights, where you were when you realised you’d lost a good friend, why you picked up the razor and how you managed to put it down before things went too far. He’s going to know your phobias, your dreams, your fears, your wishes, and your worries. He’s going to know about your first heartbreak, your dream wedding, and your problems with your parents. He’ll know your strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy, and your mixed emotions. He’s going to know about your love for mayonnaise, your dream of being famous when you were five, your need to quote any film you know all the way through, and your fear of growing older. He’ll know your bad habits, your mannerisms, your stroppy pout, your facial expressions, and your laugh like it’s his favourite song. The way you chew, drink, walk, sleep, fidget and kiss. He’s going to know that you’ve already picked out wedding flowers, baby names, tiles for the bathroom, bridesmaid dresses, and the colour of your bedroom walls. He’s going to know, get annoyed at and then accept that you leave clothes everywhere, take twenty minutes to order a Starbucks, have to organise your DVD’s alphabetically, and check your horoscope… just incase. He’ll know your McDonald’s order, how many sugars to put in your tea, how many scoops of ice cream you want, and that you need your sandwiches cut into triangles. He’s going to know how you feel without you telling him, that you need a wee from a look on your face, and that you’re crying without shedding tears. He’s going to know all of it. Everything. You, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what else? He is still going to love you."
I’m going to be happy now.
The Bird and the Bee
How Deep Is Your Love (Envoy Remix)
And if I want to mourn over you,
they should let me. Because you
weren’t just someone you meet
everyday; in the supermarket,
or standing behind in a line
at the gas station. You were
someone who was worth
fighting for. And I tried to
fight for you, and I hope you
know that. Because even if
you are now gone forever,
something inside of me is telling me
that you are still somehow
able to understand
just how much
I really did love you.
"He may still love you. He probably does. He probably doesn’t know what he wants. He probably still thinks about you all the time. But that isn’t what matters. What matters is what he’s doing about it, and what he’s doing about it is nothing. And if he’s doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn’t do anything. You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life."
Turn You On feat. Timothy Bautista
"You are not clingy, or needy, or silly for having needs for affection and affirmation and attention within a romantic relationship. Those needs aren’t an embarrassing outgrowth of your low-self esteem or depression or whatever messy emotional issues you may have going on, that’s just basic shit that people need from each other. We of course should not make our partners responsible for meeting all of our emotional needs – it’s not someone’s else’s job to make you happy. But inside a healthy relationship, being able to show affection, pay attention, and demonstrate “you are amazing and important to me” is a pleasure, not some task or burden."
I’m in no rush to get into a relationship or be labeled as “official” with anyone. I’m quite happy with my life as is. Yes, there may be times when I feel lonely and yearn for the presence of someone to be there for me, but there’s more to a relationship than just the physical stuff. Plus, I’d rather stay single than be pressured to be committed to someone anyway. I’ll just stay patient till the days comes.